Born with a sense of entitlement

No one sits us down at the beginning of our lives and tells us how many years of this strange thing called 'life' we are going to get. But somehow and from somewhere, we have a preconceived notion that we automatically have been given an allocated amount of years and comforts, such as money, friends, a house even the creature comforts... like its our 'right.' And woe betide anyone who gets in the way of these rights - God included. 

A lot of us often go through life totally ignorant of its purpose. Instead of finding our true purpose and identity in God and in turn loving each other, we seek material gain, we search for what makes us feel better either materially or emotionally. We live selfishly, sometimes even blindly hurting others in search of our own immediate needs and concerns, after all, "Isn't it my right to feel good?" 

And then suddenly when the cold hand of tragedy strikes and this gift of life seems to be 'cut short' (if there is such a thing), we get angry and upset and we shake our fist at God for robbing us of our own fabricated and imaginary entitlements.

We get at angry at the one who graciously gave us this gift of life. The One who continually gives us our existence moment by moment, through no effort of our own.  

Who sat us down at the beginning and said we are all entitled to live 80 - 90 - 100 years? Who sat us down at the moment of consciousness and said to us, "You will be allocated exactly 85 years, you will be given a good job, the ability to own your own home, you will have 4 children allocated to you and will then live relatively comfortably for the next few decades. Although there will be some difficult times, you will mostly enjoy friends and family till the end, and when the end does come it will be sweet and soft."? 

Who has told us the lie, that a long life is equal to a good life? When did the meaning of life, the quality of our character and how we treat each other get trumped by length of life? Some children who have died have certainly lived more fruitfully and loved their neighbour with more of a pure heart than a lot of us. Is that to mean their life meant any less because of it's brevity? 

Life no matter how short, be it years or even months it is a miracle. Because instead of life there could have been nothing in it's place. Life is something where there was once nothing and that in itself is a cause to celebrate. And the experiences gained in that life (no matter how short) are all a blessing. If an infant lives for but a day, yet in that day has felt the kiss of it's mother, or the warm embrace of it's father and has felt the golden rays of the sun on it's face even for a moment, hasn't it lived it's one day on earth in full?

I'm no sadist and I am not ignoring the tragedy of death nor the undeniable pain, hurt and loss it brings, but our lives cannot be judged by their length as some kind of measuring rod that ascertains it's meaning or it's fullness. 

In days of old, the most noble of young warriors would rise to the call for battle - for king and country and in the bravery of battle they would be slain - all for the protection and love of their families. Though painful, there was a certain glory in their death. They lived for something, and they died for that something, and that something was usually bigger than themselves. There was no shame, no quiet mourning, their bodies were set alight and paid homage to by the mourners who were warmed by the flames of their departing glory. Their lives stood for more than just their current and immediate needs and what they died for was more valuable than a long and healthy life - more than waiting for a juicy superannuation plan and a house. It's meaning and it's substance carried more weight than all of these.

If we are faced with tragedy, we must think back... how often did we thank God for the company of that individual who has now died, or even now lies dying? How grateful were we that the their existence and presence in our lives was a gift of grace given to us totally undeserved? Or did we take that individuals existence and presence in our lives as a 'given'? Something to be taken for granted. Did we realise that the love of a friend or a family member or even the care of a nurse in our dying hours is a gift? Something we have done absolutely nothing to deserve, or are all these things just our 'right'? 

There have been millions on earth who have never experienced the love of a true parent or even the companionship of a single true friend. There have been countless numbers who have been born and raised in slavery (and still are). There are many this very day who sift through garbage dumps daily for food and live short and sick lives. Where are their rights? Where is their comfy warm house, meat and two veg on the table, their 90 years and their soft retirement package? 

We are so quick to ignore God, ignore his gracious gift of life to the extent of being so busy with life's interests, lusts or greed that we forget why we even have been given life in the first place! God has given us our very life. After all, in the darkness of non-being, did we suddenly conjure our own will from nothing, and cause ourselves to 'be'? But in realising this, how often do we ponder and thank him for it? How often do we softly speak a 'thank you' during those gold moments of joy with our families? How often do we ask ourselves... How blessed am I? To have the gift of existence - where there could have been no existence at all. And in that existence, have the blessing of even one person who LOVES me for no other reason than because I exist? 

We can get on our high horse and while we are shaking our fist at God and bellow, "If only He was in MY shoes he'd understand! If He got of his cloud and lived my life I'm sure he would change things!". What most people don't realise is that he did! God DID get off his cloud, God in Christ did become a human being and he was born into a poor family, in a dirty stable no less, surrounded by animal dung. He also lived a life of selflessness, he lived a life of love, he was called the 'suffering servant'. But also in his life he had peace, he had assurance and joy despite his trials - because he knew who he was, he knew who's he was and in that he knew his purpose and lived it to the full. 

And what was his reward for living such a holy, selfless and giving life? He was betrayed by a friend, abandoned by his closest companions, falsely accused, whipped, beaten, cut, bruised, spat on, then tortured on a cross util he died. That was HIS reward for his 33 years (not the full 85 mind you). But he did it all for love, he did it because he knew his purpose, and that was to redeem humanity. To cure us of this sickness called sin that blinds us and robs us of our true purpose and our real identity and finally to bring us back home to Him and the Eternal Father, the King of Love.

You have been given life through no power of your own, so the question is... "what are you doing with it?"

The Poor Man

"This poor man cried, and the LORD heard him and saved him out of all his troubles." - Psalm 34:6

What is a poor man? Someone who has nothing. Not only that but someone who has nothing and knows it.

A poor man cannot pretend to be rich because all he has is rags. He cannot say much because whatever advice he gives will be weighed against his current condition. He is poor... Unless we realize how poor we are only then can be bestowed with whatever God has for us - wisdom, a revelation of himself, material gain - whatever.

Unless you realize you have nothing, only then can God give you something.. Because then you will receive it with tears of gratitude.

So often in our darkened thinking we think we have to drum up Gods affection, we think we need to 'save up' good deeds in order for Him to hear out cry. We work for his favour, his blessing, even his listening ear. Good deeds, time spent in works, or in 'prayer' or even 'studying the word' but we do it somewhat with not so much the wrong intentions, but a wrong belief. That by doing these things, God will hear me, God will listen. Well at least I do. But we must reach the end of ourselves, to the point where knowing that no amount of our effort could even lift the finger of God.

As long as we pretend we have something in the bank, God will let us use our own pathetic finances until we come to the end of ourselves and finally realize we are actually broke and let him know that everything we own, everything we think we have is all but dust and moths.

We must begin to understand that God listens because he wants to listen. He loves us because he WANTS to love us, not because we deserve it, neither because he is pleased with our performance. If he loved us thusly it wouldn't be love at all.

Sometimes in life when we have fought the battle so long and exhaustion takes over, where no matter what we have done nothing has changed, where we are destitute, where we have come to the end of ourselves and we do not even have the energy to fight anymore - even if that fight is for something we think we should be going after... When we reach this point, this is what we have to offer God, our tears. That burst of facing our emptiness, our brokenness, our pain and our disappointments.

You see God has everything, he doesn't need anything from us at all, but he does want one thing. Out hearts. Our pathetic, wounded bleeding hearts. He wants us to stop hiding behind all that we think are and pretend to be and be honest with him, so he can reveal his love to us, heal us. 

A friend once told me that God doesn't define us by our performance based on our outward actions, he defines us by the cry of our hearts. And there is nothing he wants more than for us to cry out to him.

Only when we have nothing can we truly be given something, and whatever God chooses to give us will be more wonderful than we could ever imagine, create or fabricate ourselves because it will be a gift of love freely given, because it all boils back down to his undeserved, loving Grace.